[ If he's confused about what Roxy needs, she's going to set him straight right the fuck now. ]
Let's make this a regular thing. With the pile?
[ Why does it feel like she's asking him out on a date, though? This is really stupid, and she's stupid for even considering it, but it's nice being with him like this talking about their feelings and oh god, she's turning into a troll. She is seriously sitting here with Dirk Strider on top of a pile asking him if he wants to go on a paledate with her in the future, what has her life become. Why is she like this.
Seriously, though, this distracts her from her cravings, from the anxiety that damn near cripples her when things don't go as planned, which they almost certainly never do. ]
Not to force your hand or nothin', it's not like that I swear, I'll never try manipulate your feelings ever again and you gotta believe me, Dirk. But I...
I don't think I can beat this thing without you.
[ Not anymore. Not when the addiction is so strong, you've considered forfeiting it all for just a goddamn sip, even though you know you'll regret it later but you just don't care. Nothing matters at that point. Not Janey, not Jake, not Dirk, and that brings tears to her eyes. That she'd go so far as to hurt the ones she loved because she just. didn't. care.
Piles do crazy things to people, like make them word vomit their most intimate thoughts and fears. ]
tw: alcohol addiction feelings beyond this point, just in case!!
Let's make this a regular thing. With the pile?
[ Why does it feel like she's asking him out on a date, though? This is really stupid, and she's stupid for even considering it, but it's nice being with him like this talking about their feelings and oh god, she's turning into a troll. She is seriously sitting here with Dirk Strider on top of a pile asking him if he wants to go on a paledate with her in the future, what has her life become. Why is she like this.
Seriously, though, this distracts her from her cravings, from the anxiety that damn near cripples her when things don't go as planned, which they almost certainly never do. ]
Not to force your hand or nothin', it's not like that I swear, I'll never try manipulate your feelings ever again and you gotta believe me, Dirk. But I...
I don't think I can beat this thing without you.
[ Not anymore. Not when the addiction is so strong, you've considered forfeiting it all for just a goddamn sip, even though you know you'll regret it later but you just don't care. Nothing matters at that point. Not Janey, not Jake, not Dirk, and that brings tears to her eyes. That she'd go so far as to hurt the ones she loved because she just. didn't. care.
Piles do crazy things to people, like make them word vomit their most intimate thoughts and fears. ]