Ah, but I got into Hope's peak because of it! That is definitely true hope and great luck.
[Even if he couldn't remember it, it couldn't have all been bad.]
I don't think there's much help here.
[It had been one of the first things he had looked into.]
It comes back to my question... is it better to die as who you are, or lose yourself completely?
[Even if he longed for a great hope and viewed hardship as a stepping stone, his bad luck and good luck already fed off each other. He was still practical (more or less) in his thinking and realistic in his expectations of presented facts. He had two choices, and still only had two choices. He was simply now doubting his original choice. He had lost time, and now he wanted more.]
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[Even if he couldn't remember it, it couldn't have all been bad.]
I don't think there's much help here.
[It had been one of the first things he had looked into.]
It comes back to my question... is it better to die as who you are, or lose yourself completely?
[Even if he longed for a great hope and viewed hardship as a stepping stone, his bad luck and good luck already fed off each other. He was still practical (more or less) in his thinking and realistic in his expectations of presented facts. He had two choices, and still only had two choices. He was simply now doubting his original choice. He had lost time, and now he wanted more.]