pulse, and other, open mingle (12-7 to whenever)

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[Wowee! We get hit with a pulse on the seventh! Isn't that fun! Also, a ship crashed, and baby it's cold inside. Some prompts.

A: Pulse: A pulse hit the planet! Life support went out, and that super sucks, but it will only last for an hour. Maybe more sucky: some or all of your powers may or may not have died! That's awkward. Are you disappointed you can't walk through walls now? Has nothing changed for you? Are you now a dead girl because you made a deal some aliens? Are you a sword? Have fun kids, and try not to hold a Class Trial.

B: Salvage: That sure was a ship that went down! URSULA identified it as the Narcissus which is apparently a human military ship so obviously this will be safe and no one is going to come across any type of trouble salvaging the ship. Maybe someone should text Naoko to tell her what's going on. Everything is fine.

C: Blanket-sharing meme: You know what you're here for.

D: ETC: Roxy is putting up mistletoe, there are flowers, people keep building stupid things. Do whatever!]


[ooc: OOC post here??]

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[oneandmikleonly]

[if by 'journey' you mean 'mortal lifetime' ha ha oh lord this is painful, he's going to take the alternative interpretation of that and run with it instead]

. . . even though your Shepherd journey's been postponed for more than a year now? I suppose--I suppose that's fair.

[imsorey]

[stealing a sidelong glance at him]

Sorry. Were you expecting a different answer?

[oneandmikleonly]

I didn't know what to expect.

...it's fine. It wasn't entirely fair of me to ask you out of the blue, anyway.

[imsorey]

I think it's a fair question to ask.

[it goes without saying, to him, that whatever he did decide would impact Mikleo too. of course he'd want to know if he has a stake in the outcome]

I'll have to think about it eventually--there's not much of a point in putting it off, right?

[oneandmikleonly]

I simply...don't want it to become a burden on you. Sorey--

[cuts himself off there, looking away]

--no, never mind.

[imsorey]

It won't be a burden.

[reaching for Mikleo's hand only to abort the motion awkwardly, settling instead for leaning into Mikleo's shoulder, just enough to put pressure there]

If you've got something on your mind I'd rather talk about it than not talk about it.

[oneandmikleonly]

[he notices the awkward motion but doesn't comment on it, leaning back into Sorey instead]

. . . it's a little frightening for me to think about too, that's all. I don't think it should be, when it's affecting your existence rather than mine, but there you have it.

[imsorey]

It's something that would impact both of us. Just in different ways. You know I'd talk to you before deciding anything.

[oneandmikleonly]

[a tiny, breathless laugh; not a noise of humor at all]

Thank you.

[imsorey]

[a small smile slips onto his face, relieved]

I know you'd do the same. Or if you didn't, you'd have a good reason.

[oneandmikleonly]

No, I'd talk to you. Of course I would...

[imsorey]

I figured as much. ...It's intimidating to think about that big of a change, so it wouldn't be unfair so say I've been putting it off. But it's kind of hard to talk about, you know?

[oneandmikleonly]

[makes a face; though he also leans into Sorey more, warm reassuring pressure]

No one's expecting you to be eager to talk about dying, Sorey. Or losing your memories. They're not exactly intristically easy topics...

[imsorey]

I thought it would be easier to talk about if it was hypothetical. But it's still weird to talk about hypothetically dying.

[oneandmikleonly]

[takes a deep breath...and lets it out, very slow]

Hypothetically I would prefer it if you just didn't die.

[imsorey]

[l-laughs, short and startled]

Even hypothetically humans are pretty mortal.

[oneandmikleonly]

Hypothetically moreso when they're a Shepherd in the middle of a war...

I didn't say it was a realistic preference.

[imsorey]

It would be my preference too. If I could pick. It would skip a few steps, like losing my memories, which would be pretty nice.

[oneandmikleonly]

. . . I wonder if you can pick. Not--not about the memories, but about the transformation in general. We never asked the Trial guardians that.

[not that that would make it any easier on someone.]

Are you afraid of that prospect--? Of waking up not remembering . . .

[imsorey]

Well, yeah. Who would want to lose their memories?

[talking about it forms an uncomfortable lump in his throat, and the words come out more defensive than he means them to. his amendment is softer, more open]

It's not hundreds of years worth of memories, but the memories I do have are important to me. If I woke up without any memories I doubt I would notice the difference. But having them right now makes me think it would be...kind of sad without them.

[oneandmikleonly]

. . .of course it would be sad. I couldn't even imagine losing memories of our--of my life like that.

You would notice, too. You. . .he said you hang onto at least a little, didn't he? You hang onto something about what was most important to you.

[imsorey]

There's so much that feels important though. You, Gramps, everyone...knowing all of you has made me the person that I am now. If it's me picking what's most important, I'd still pick all of it.

[shifting and leaning up against the countertop, forcing himself to actually think about it. he wants to pick all of it, to make all of it important, but there are a few things that he can't help but treasure more than most.]

Probably.

[oneandmikleonly]

It's a cruel price to pay.

[not that their world's system is particularly benevolent in any other way, though.]

[imsorey]

I doubt the intention was for it to be a fair price. Life doesn't really work that way.

[that doesn't make it suck any less though]

It would theoretically be possible to write everything down so that I can read about all of it, but it's not quite the same as remembering. It's...an alternative, at least.

[oneandmikleonly]

I'd tell you about anything you wanted to. You're right, it wouldn't be the same, but...

...I imagine that's how most other people do it, making the transition.